Sunday, November 25, 2012

Hello, my dear dead blog. It's nearly been 6 months since I last visited you. Oh well. Time does fly. 15 years old, and still growing(vertically too I hope), but life has only shown me a glimpse of how it can be. I lived for 15 years on this planet, with each day shaping me into who I am today. I'm not perfect; I do have my own flaws as well. I generally prefer to be alone, but contradictory I love and yearn to be with my closest friends. Split personality perhaps? Only time can tell. I have no idea why I have decided to write a new post, after neglecting my blog for almost half a year. Maybe it's because I was reminded of it when my cousin, Kamin called me. "Stop and stare/You start to wonder why you're here not there" Okay. End of random post :)

Sunday, February 5, 2012

I lost myself in this world
I need to find myself back.
But how?

Sunday, December 18, 2011

So that's how you face situations.

You change topics. Try to make me think about other stuff.

It hurts so much to think that you can only do this.

Why had I expected so much?
I feel bad to let you wait for me
and you are important
Conan is so coooool in 800th chapter ^^
Don't be upset with anymore!

I am important. Everyone is.

You forgot the "important with me".

Saturday, December 17, 2011

I'm really messed up.

It's really hard to talk to you anymore. With every letter that I type, some voice in my head seems to whisper to me "Stop, before you regret it."

Maybe that voice is right. Maybe I should stop. It hurts so much, thinking that you always treated me like just an acquaintance, someone who is just annoying you by always blabbering to you online.

No other person would have forget a meeting. Even if their schedule is packed, even if they're only acquaintances, even if they can't make it, they would at least inform the other party.

It took 1 day for you to forget. Just 1 day.

Maybe you don't deem me as someone important. I'm probably an annoying acquaintance, that's all. Forgot about our meeting? It's fine, I texted her already.

You never knew how I waited for you, going up and down the escalators, rushing for the first time I went down, thinking that I was late, and that you would be there already.

No, you weren't.

You never came.

I went back up, hoping that you would send another text, apologising with sincerity and mentioning that you would immediately drop by.

It never came too.

Just sorry, I feel really guilty.

I'm trembling now, but blinking furiously to keep back my feelings, about to explode.

I'm afraid.

Sunday, December 11, 2011

It must really be painful waiting for your loved one to come back into your arms, when that loved one is so far away...

True, a real long hug is the only cure for that heartburn.

"No, not those stupid one armed hugs. Or those hugs that only last for like a second. I want a real, long hug. One where you just don’t want to let go. One where you feel safe in that person’s arms, and that everything is okay. Or that everything will be okay. I want a hug that will remind me that everything will get better. I want a hug from someone who I know I can count on to always be there for me. I want a real hug not just from anyone, but from you.

(via bits-oflove)"

Quoted from Onii's tumblr.
Awesome.

I can't go for council chalet now.

Even after I promised myself that I would go for both council camp and chalet last year, after my batchmates told me how much fun they had and how close they have bonded with each other, after I told myself that I wouldn't let any other event clash with my council camp or chalet.

I didn't go for Xi'an trip in order to go for council camp. Which disappointed my parents. A lot.

But I still went for council camp.I didn't want to miss it again, and miss the opportunity to bond with others.

But now, I can't even go for council chalet. Just because I had "went for council camp". Quoted from my father.

What are you all going to do at the chalet?

Bond of course!

No. I don't allow you to go.

I understand about the safety issues. I understand your side of the argument.

But it just doesn't help to ease the pain and hurt...

Thursday, December 8, 2011

All I want for Christmas, is YOU <3

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Mariah Carey - All I Want for Christmas is You

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is...
You

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I don't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeers click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
Ooh baby
All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me...

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see my baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is...
You

All I want for Christmas is you... baby

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That's my only wish this Christmas ;)

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Bummer.

I received the news yesterday from Cheryl High that 9 subjects was REALLY CANCELLED. And that I had already spent money on buying the books for 9 subject combination. WHY WAS NINE SUBJECTS CANCELLEDDDDDDDDD.

I was really anticipating a whole class of students taking 9 subjects together, and creating new memories as a class where classmates will understand each other. I really wanted to be in a class like 305'11, where I heard that you can feel a different aura of the class when you walk in.

But I can't now. I can't even study my most anticipated subject, pure geography.

What a bummer.

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Onii. Must. Really. Like. Posts. Dedicated. To. Him.

THEN IMOTO SHALL DEDICATE ANOTHER POST TO ONII! HIIII ONII XD

Haha, imoto don't know what to say, it's 11.32pm at night! Haha, I bet onii's still talking to onee though~ Time wouldn't affect you two at all ;))))))

Ehhhhh, did onii tell onee of imoto's blog??? ONII CAN GO TELL XD HEYYYYYY ONEEEEEEEEE XD XD XD

Onee, do you have a blog? Imoto want to read? Onii's too~ Hehe, IMOTO'S BACK TO BLOGGING AGAIN.

Whoopee~(((:
3RD FAC OUTING TODAY~ XD

FAC Party RULES! Fun and CRAZAYYYYYYY!!!

Met up at Jurong Point for movie and lunch. After getting out of the MRT station, I spotted Lianghsi inside the mall already, with his back facing me. I rushed forward, wanting to chide him for waiting INSIDE of the mall, instead of the originally planned OUTSIDE of the mall, before he just walked off to the right without noticing that i was just right behind him. Oh well, I tried to chase after him and get his attention by flailing my hands in front of his face, but he totally surprised me by just continuing to walk without any kind of recognition of me. Luckily, after riding the escalator up and then calling his name when I saw him picking up his phone to call, he then turned around and saw me. Epic much?

Cheryl High came later, but Cheryl Low was nowhere to be found. Lianghsi even headed inside the MRT station, just beside the gates(machines) and stood there like a model waiting for her. Hehe, Cheryl High and I giggled as I took photos of him, and when he turned around, we just both feigned innocence. It worked (: We continued to wait, but Cheryl Low didn't answer to our calls and messages, and time was ticking by before our movie would start soon. So the three of us decided to head up to get the tickets for PUSS IN BOOTS 3D~ before Cheryl came to save time. Chatted and went slightly hyper with Cheryl High while waiting for the entrance to the theatre to be opened, but i can't help noticing that Lianghsi was really worried about Cheryl Low's whereabouts and whether she will be coming. He was really concerned about her (: HEHE

Throughout the movie, Cheryl High and I kept laughing, and Lianghsi was slightly annoyed at first and chided at me to not laugh so loudly in the cinema, thought there were only about 10-15 people inside. HAHA. But I took no noticed and instead punched him playfully in the shoulder anyway. I was pretty worried for him, since he mentioned being unable to watch something in 3D for long periods of time and needed to take the 3D glasses out for a while to rest his eyes.

After the movie, we met Stephanie, and then headed to Kopitiam for lunch. Lianghsi ordered first, and literally wolfed down a plate of chicken rice(after calling it a scam since it was a small bowl of rice on a big plate HAHA) even though he had finished a full regular coke and ate popcorn, which I bought to share between the 3 of us for the movie. The rest of us just waited and chatted, before Cheryl Low texted me that she was coming, and I told Lianghsi to met her outside and bring her in, which he did so willingly. I shared LOOKS with Cheryl High and Stephanie, and yup, they agreed.

Cheryl Low soon came, but without Lianghsi. She then told us that he was outside and had spotted her and patted her on the head. SOME LOVE THERE! XD Haha, then we filled her in about his worry and concern for her all before she came. We, the girls, soon ordered our food after agreeing on loser ordering with a game of zhongjimima. Cheryls ordered first, before Stephanie and I. Lianghsi just rested with head on the table while we ate and chatted, until WE STARTED TALKING ABOUT CRUSHES AND THEN WE HAD TO SAY OUR STORIES. Cheryl Low started first, Cheryl High had none, Stephanie mentioned liking someone in Council, and then Cheryl Low commented that my story was interesting before urging me to start. (: I think somewhere in the middle of our chat, Lianghsi went out of the kopitiam, and came back at the right moment where i was talking about SY confessing to me through his hand drawn book, and then he started smiling in a cute manner. HAHA. He also gave me a SUPER TROLL FACE when I forced him to finish the popcorn, but to no avail. That had all of us laughing out loud XD

Lianghsi left early, to our disapointment, at 1.30pm. We then headed to Toy Outpost, and then walked back to the new Jurong Point, where Stephanie left early too. Then the 3 of us, Cheryl High, Low and I, went to MacDonalds' for a chat. Somehow Cheryl Low got Yufeng(DADDY<3)'s phone number, and we decided to give him a surprise call:

Hello, is this Yufeng? Today is the International Spread Love Day! Would you like some love?

First time, Cheryl High called, because she lost the game of zhongjimima, but she failed before reading the full message because we all started laughing so hard and giggled away.

Second time, I called, because I lost the game too, but failed to finish saying the words of "International Spread Love Day" before I caught the laughter from the Cheryls and I too burst into laughter and hung up. But no worries, we revealed who we were after and even wished him a great day at work. WE LOVE YOU DADDY<3 Daddy said he loves us too (: He then texted us saying that he had quitted his job. ):

Going back, Cheryl High and I tried to find Cheryl Low in the train after getting off to wave goodbye, when we found that she just DISAPPEARED. WHERE WERE YOU CHERYL??? (: Haha, then I too tried to wave goodbye to Cheryl High after she got on another MRT, but failed too.

3RD FAC OUTING:CHERYL HIGH AND CHERYL LOW, LIANGHSI, STEPHANIE AND I. Great time we had!

Next outing: DADDY HERE WE COME <3
After re-reading all my blog posts that i wrote before my secondary school life, it dawned on me:

I changed so much.

I used to be so automatically hyper and had plenty of BFFS in school to talk about in my blog. But now, somehow life just got harder, and BFFs are hard to find now. Conflicts happened, and I got so lost, and I can't get back up again.

Ek Hwee, Dawn, Sakinah, Yiling, Sze Teng, Brenda, Hao Yu, Zhong Zhi, Carmen, Sze Ming, Le Min, gosh I miss you guys SO MUCH. But knowing now you guys have probably found new BFFs in your new school life, I can't help wondering if you had forgotten about me.

I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH, YOU'LL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART <3
Found this really interesting piece of information from my cousin(KAMIN XD):


IF you were born on the:

1st, 10th, 19th, 28th of any month you are number 1.
2nd, 11th, 20th, 29th of any month then you are number 2.
3rd, 12th, 21st, 30th of any month then you are number 3.
4th, 13th, 22nd, 31st of any month then you are Number 4.
5th, 14th, 23rd of any month then you are number 5.
6th, 15th, 24th of any month then you are number 6.
7th, 16th, 25th of any month then you are number 7.
8th, 17th, 26th of any month then you are number 8.
9th, 18th, 27th of any month then you are number 9.

Number 1
You are smart, a straight talker, funny, stubborn, hardworking, honest, jealous
on a competitive basis, kind hearted, temperamental, friendly, and popular. You
always want to be on the top and most likely to be independent. You are most
likely to fall in love at a young age, but will marry once you mature! You are
likely to have problems with people who have opposite views and you are most
likely to take revenge over your enemies in a long time basis. You are a
spender, but you will have a good profession in the future. If you are guy you
will be very popular. You can go anywhere from the local shop to the heart of
the parliament because you are positive and talented in numerous areas. But in
your life you will always have some people who will work hard to bring you &
your name down. Because of your intelligence, some might hate you. You are a
pioneer, independent & original your best match is 4, 6, 8 while a good match
would be with 3,5,7

Number 2
No matter what, every one will love you because you are ruled by the Moon. You
day dream a lot, you have a very low-self esteem, you need to have a back up for
every move in your life, you are very unpredictable. You tend to change
according to time and circumstances, selfish, have a very strong sense of
musical and artistic talent and powerful verbal communication. You can be sweet
as an angel and can be ruthless when double-crossed. Some might say you have a
sixth sense. You will become a poet, writer, an artist or a businessperson. You
are not strong in love, so your relationship will be in disarray until you
settle down. If you are a girl, you will be responsible for your family. If you
are a man, you tend to get involve in fights & arguments in the family. You will
sacrifice your life for your family. You are gentle, intuitive with a broad
vision. You make a well-balanced person. Your best match is 2, 7,5, and 9 no
other people can put up with you!!!

Number 3
You are hardhearted and selfish most of the time. You always tend to have lots
of problems within your family in the early stages but you will be able to cope
with everything. You seem to have your way in everything. And from birth you
would always have to work hard to achieve anything you want. You always make a
point to set examples on others, especially the younger ones. Generally you are
not a cool person. It's not easy dealing with you. A tough player you are! But
once you are comfortable with someone, it will be a lasting friendship. You
always earn respect from others. Your Ilk seems to have lots of worries and
problems but they won't be for long. You will have brilliant kids! You love
money a bit too much so temptation will push you to try endlessly. You will look
after your family and help friends, so you will spend a life time just being
generous and kind (except for men born on the 21st). You love your freedom,
creative and ambitious, a person who brings beauty, hope & joy to this world!!!
Your best match 6 and 9. Good match 1, 3, and 5

Number 4
You are very stubborn, very hard working but unlucky in important matters in
life, very cool and helpful. You might repel people away from you, you may cause
nuisance to others if you area man, as you gifted are with understanding other
people's problems. If you are a girl, you excel in your studies and arts. If you
are a guy you spend most of your time with girl friends and you tend to have too
much fun with your mates & girls. Your friends will spend your time & money and
get on with their life and you will be left empty handed. So be careful! You
love to spend. Your positive side is that you are always around to help family
and friends. You always fall in love with those younger than you. You often live
with disappointments but you will take good care of your family. You need to be
careful of people who will take advantage of your kind heart (ahaks!). And
beware of your relationships too. You are radical, patient, persistent, and a
hit old-fashioned; you live with foundation & order. Your best match 1, 8. Good
match 5, 6, and 7

Number 5
You are very popular and you can get things done only by talking. Even to your
enemies! You are business-minded and like to do things spontaneously. You will
be famous if you get involved in any business. Your friends and families will
always ask for your help, and you are the one actually with the money to help
your friends. You will have more than one relationship, but when you settle down
you tend to be selfish. You tend to go for other relationships - even if you are
married at times because of your popularity. You tend to get along easily with
anyone because the numbers is a middle number. You love freedom and changes. You
learn your life through your personal experiences. Your best match 1, 2, Good
match 6, 8.

Number 6
Ooopppss... You were born to enjoy! You don't care about others. I mean you
always wanted to have a lifetime of enjoyment. You will excel in either
education or business management! You are talented, kind (but with only people
who you think are nice), and popular. All good things come easily to you. Your
mind and body is just made perfect for love. You are loveable by any number. But
if you are a number 6 men, you will be involved in more than a few relationships
until you get married. If you are a girl, most of you will get married/engaged
early. You are a caring person towards your family and friends. You are a person
of compassion, comfort & fairness, domestic responsibility, good judgment, and
after all you can heal this world's wounds to make peace for everyone because
you have the great power and caring talent to take the world of love one step
further.. Your best match 7, 6, and 9. Good match 4, 5

Number 7
You are realistic, confident, happy, and talented in education, music, art,
singing, and most importantly in acting. You also have a bad temper! You value
your family status a lot; you will be in the top rank when you reach a certain
age. If you are a guy you are popular with girls. Most of the number 7s faces
lots of problems with their married life. Only a few are happy. You have
everything in your life but with worries throughout your lifetime. You need to
get ready looking for a partner rather than waiting. If you don't, then you
might end-up being single. You are born to contribute to everyone's joy. Your
best match is 2. Good matches are 1, 4

Number 8
You have a very strong personality and people will find it hard to understand
you. You are more likely to suffer in your younger years. You might be also the
one responsible to look out for your family. You often suffer all the way
through life. You will learn life in a very practical way. You are the one who
will fight for justice and may even die in the war too. You are normally very
reserved with a handful of friends and most of the time, live life alone and
always prepared to help others. However, once you settle down, (which is often
late), then your had lucks will disappear. You will face unexpected problems
such as encountering poisonous animals, and accidents. You are highly-
disciplined, persistence, and courageous, and it is your strength that will take
you to success. You are a great part of a family team. You are a fighter! Your
Best match 1, 4 and 8. Good match 5

Number 9
You guys are the most incompatible people in the world. You are so strong,
physically and mentally. You often have big-aims. You will work hard and will
think it's still hard to get there, even if you already have gotten there!
Normally you suffer in the early age from family problems and generally you will
have to fight in life. You are respected by others. You were however very
naughty in your childhood, and often got beaten up by your parents and had been
involved in fights and you seemed to have suffered lots of injuries. But when
you grow older you become calm and will fall into the quiet and dignified macho
type. Love is not an easy matter for you. You are however good in engineering or
banking jobs because people always trust you. Your family life is very good, but
you will always worry over your children. Your finer qualities are that you are
humanitarian, patient, very wise & compassionate. You are born to achieve
targets and serve every one equally without any prejudice. You are a role model
for everyone. Your best match 3, 5, 6, and 9. Good match 2

(:
OHMYGOSH MY BLOG HAS BEEN DEAD FOR ALMOST A YEAR.

Hehe, this post is dedicated to onii, who's probably the only one reading the blog now (:

HI THERE ONII! <3 don't rawr :D YESH I RE-OPENED MY BLOG FOR ONII KAY.

Haha, the posts below are mostly those that I posted on my blog before I lost myself, so onii read kay~ Imoto was very different before ;)

Until the next post then? Onii must follow imoto's blog kay!

<3 MEOW.

WHERE'S ONEE????? DX

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Hey. This is OFFICIALLY the 2nd day of SCHOOL. Whoopee!
(first day)I missed my friends and council SO MUCHH, I basically just almost screamed when I saw Cheryl and the rest. AND I RUSHED TO HUG YANLING AND KEHUI!!!!!!!!!!!! Haha, council duty changed for me. I DIDN'T GET SEC 1s' CLASS!!!!! I got 311 intstead. Oh well, there's always next year. I WILL BE SEC 3 THEN!!!
Being a senior is great, awesome, fabulous. All the sec 1s were all so blurblur on the first day of school. They should stood there, staring into space, all sotong blur one. SO CUTEEEEEEE~~~
After council meeting, I FINALLY GOT TO HELP THEM!!! Yay, then it was class council duty time. I'm with 403's Wang Shufan. (: HIIEEE SENIOR! :D
Then went back to class, Mdm Tan is our form teacher again!! HAHA! We talked about class rules and motto,and I grouped up with Yanling, Kehui and Jingchao. I WENT SUPER HIGH LORH. Jingchao laughed until she had a headache. (:
Forgot the rest, just remember going to WEST MALL with beloved Jingchao and Jasmine. Ate lunch at Kopitiam, drank coke and chat like SIAO.We sat for 1 hour plus there.(:
Walked around the place, it was like super smallllllll~~
Went home after that.(:
2nd day was lessons, ohgosh. Chinese was this relief teacher, Mrs Zhong. Mrs Zhuang is still our chinese teacher. Goodie. Maths was still MR CHEE!!! OMG OMG OMG!!! HE'S SUPER NICEE~~~~~ Haha!
Recess!!!!! So hungry leh.
Music lesson~ Mdm Lim was our music teacher. A complete replica of Ms Yeo. Ohgosh.
Geog lesson. Mdm Priyanka was our new geog teacher. I prefer Mdm Poon though. (:
CHEM LESSON. Mdm Tan's here~~ We learnt about the physical quantities and measuring today. :D
Went back home with Steffi talking about JAPAN. JAPAN IS FRIGGING AWESOME!!!

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

THIS IS THE 101TH POST. YAY!!!
Haha, yup, updating today's activities~
Woke up at around 11plus in the morning, exhausted from all the maths homework. BLEARGH. Then starting doing maths homework, all the way until lunch, before continuing until now. Sigh. MATHS!!!!!

Monday, December 13, 2010

Hie~ I have not blogged for a super long time. HEHE.
Just going to post a very special blog entry today~
Guess what! I went to UNIVERSAL STUDIOS SINGAPORE yesterday~ XD XD XD
Morning at around 7plus was the time when my cousin, Kamin, came. I just woke up, as a matter of fact, and came downstairs to find her staring intently at the fish tank, observing the goldfishes swimming in circles and gobbling on the small pebbles, before puking them out. Said hi and then noticed her dark eyecircles. ): I wonder if she had been sleeping well for the past few nights.
Embarking on our journey, we went to stock up on our supply of snacks to munch on at USS: bread. Kamin and I went completely bonkers in the car. Tip of the day: Never leave the engine off in the car when there's humans inside. XD
After arriving at Harbourfront, we walked over to the food centre nearby to have egg prata for breakfast. Not bad. (:
While taking the monorail from Vivocity to USS, we were all squeezed in the tiny monorail. Seems like it was a huge magic trick that allowed so many passengers to alight the tiny monorail. (:
At USS, we waited outside for the queuing crowd to subside. After waiting, we went in at about 10.35am. Hollywood, here we are! Everything looked so bright and colourful. There was this excited atmosphere in the air.
USS was SUPERB. Everything there was up to my expectations. The rides there were much better and thrilling than those in Genting. The queuing was in fact shorter than the ones in Genting, which is a huge relief. Having to queue for that long in Genting, in the terribly burning hot weather in Singapore is going to be a torture.
First show: Lights, Camera, ACTION!
Experiencing a "live" telecast of a hurricane in New York City right in front of us was really an amazing experience. There was real live flames, furious rushing water, and even an huge ship that crashed into the scene! It was really comical, since at the moment before the ship crashed in, the reporter was going "Everything is under control." Get it? Haha. Plus, a tiny tip, if you want to get splashed, stand right in front of the audience. Getting splashed by the water then is guaranteed. (; Since I stood right in front, the inevitable happened. Slightly splashed me walked out of the theatre with equally splashed Mum, Kamin and super splashed Dad. While walking out, I was laughing with Kamin about that sudden "THUD" before the ship crashed in as the platform beneath the first row of the audience suddenly dropped down and came up again. WOAH. Scary.
1st ride: Accelerator
A ride that spins you round and round isn't going to make me scream that mad. At least it was a relief to have the wind blow in your face in the hot weather.
2nd ride: The Revenge of the Mummy
This ride was definitely a must-ride. Even whiling queuing in its dark queuing areas, the dim lights and paintings on the walls scared Kamin and I to bits. Grabbing onto each other's hands and edging forward, we were terrified. We sat at the LAST ROW. OMG. It was so THRILLIING, EXCITING and TERRIFYING!!! We SCREAMED like mad women, held on to the handles for our lives, as we twisted, turned, accelerated, suddenly reversed backwards and dropped 90degrees downwards in DARKNESS. Kamin and I even floated off our seats for a moment there!!! My parents and I even bought the picture, which featured my mum SMILING( OMG, HOW CAN SHE SMILE?!), my dad closing his eyes(he was feeling dizzy from the twist and turns), my cousin Kamin with her head down to the handle( she was holding onto the handle for her life), and me with my big mouth SCREAMING my head off. (: HEHE.
2nd Show: Shrek 4D Adventure
My first 4D movie~ It was awesome, as expected. I got jerked, shook, squirted, tickled and whatever you cannot expect in my seat. Being squirted by water in my seat during the movie stunned me, before I burst into laughter. I was in a HYPER MODE that day. XD Being shot by a gust of cold air at your legs surprised my cousin and I too.
3rd Show: Donkey "Live"
Running into the theatre for the show wasn't what we had expected, as after we got out from the Shrek 4D Adventure show, there was this guy yelling:"DONKEY LIVE SHOW IN 2 MINTUES!" My parents, Kamin and I rushed into the theatre, of course, and had a great time laughing at Donkey's antics and jokes.
LUNCH:
We had lunch at Celebrity Cafe and Bakery, where my Dad had a Chicken Croissant, my Mum had a Curry Puff, Kamin had a Tuna sandwich and I had a Bacon Sandwich. The Mushroom soup which came along with our meals was DELICIOUS. I never had such delicious mushroom soup before.
3rd+4th ride:
Enchanted Airways: This was a JUNIOR roller-coaster that had Kamin and I screaming too. There was not much queue when we took it, so we went for TWO RIDES. XD For the first ride, Kamin and I screamed, even though it was like we were the only ones screaming. (: For the second ride though, I was prepared. I SMILED all the way, while Kamin was still screaming, but this time, with her eyes open. This two rides was a great chance to enjoy the scenery of USS for a tiny bit.
5th ride: Dino-Soaring
As kid-ish as the ride sounds, yup, it is a kiddie's ride. Since the queue was short and the ride that Kamin and I wanted to go originally had "technical difficulties", we decided on this one. We went up and down, up and down, UPPPPP and down on the flying dinosaur, as I had no control over it even though I was pressing the button for almost the whole ride. GOD, it suddenly jerked at one point and had my heart racing. I can't believe a kiddie's ride made me feel so excited. XD And my Dad was taking photos nearby. I CAN SEE YOU, DAD!!!
6th ride: Canopy Flyer
This 53-seconds ride had Kamin and I screaming too, while we enjoyed the cool breeze on our faces, and a breath-taking view of the Jurassic Park beneath us.
4th Show: Waterworld
I truly enjoyed this show the most. It not only made Kamin and I slightly splashed, but it also made us laugh and anticipate the splashes. There were three zones: 1st zone: the SOAKED zone, which guarantees the audience to be completely SOAKED if they dare to sit in that unlucky zone; 2nd zone: the SPLASH zone, audiences sitting in this area will get splashed, but possibly soaked too; 3rd zone: the DRY zone, dry is all the audiences can be in this zone. The actors had a really great time wetting the audiences in the SOAKED zone with BUCKETS of water, purposely raining those who were armed with ponchos and umbrella, and fired with water guns at those in the SPLASH zone. One even took the trouble to go up the stairs and slipped in between the rows of the audiences, and SPLASH, fired them from behind with his water gun. He even turned round and round, firing those who were in his perimeter. One actor even came up from behind my row, which was the LAST ROW of the splash zone, firing at the audience's back in my row. Luckily, when he came to Kamin and I, his water gun ran out of water and we both jumped out of "harm's" way as water splashed our seats. oh well. (: At one scene, one actor purposely soaked the audiences with the sudden turning of his motor-boat in the waters, and splashing Kamin and I. I can't possibly imagine how wet the front row audiences can get if I already got splashed that much in the last row of the SPLASH zone.
With all the loud explosions, gun-firing, crashing, and the huge destruction the actors caused in this show, it was obvious that there was a 3-hours interval between each show to fix and restore everything back into place for the next show. I remember, there was even one time, at the ending, when a huge airplane just burst into the scene! It was a spectacular show.
6 rides, 4 shows, 1 awesome day for my parents, Kamin and I.
I can only use amazing, hilarious, fantastic,unforgettable,awesome and anything wonderful that can describe this whole day at the USS.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Hey peeps. Yup, I know. MY BLOG'S LIKE DEAD FOR ????? Haha, busy since sec school started~ But I guess it's gonna be like WHOOSH since EOYs ended. CCA's gonna start~ and we have Post-Examination Activities( I have no idea what they are planning for us), but I do hope it's SUPER COOL AND FUN. ^^ Kays, short post. Gonna post soon when I get bored again. :P Haha. Cyas~! XD

Monday, June 21, 2010

Hey y'alls~(LOL. I SOUND LIKE AN Oklahoma person~)
Haha~ Jiaying knows that she has not been posting for a SUPER LONG time~ LOL. Cos she's busy doing stuff during the hols, homework, going to CHINA~, catching up on her sleep~ Seems like she has not enough time to do anything she really wants, like HEHE~
Jiaying just came back from China, and BOUGHT A LOT OF SOUVENIRS, but she is very surprised that she has left a lot of money, which is a good thing cos she saved a lot~ She's really happy that Kamin likes her souvenir, and hopes that others will like their souvenirs too~ Jiaying is really sorry if she forgot to buy you a souvenir, cos she can only spend some money on souvenirs, and the rest is actually saved.
Now doing homework, she relly hopes that she can finish them in time to do some other stuff she wants to do.
CYA PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!! LOVES~ MUACKS!!!!!!!!

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Hie~ Haha. I am so busy nowadays. I got back from Choir at like 7.15pm after buying dinner. xp I am exhausted. Plus, I have not touched my maths homework yet. I SERIOUSLY NEED A MATH TUTOR. Anyone wanna tutor me? (:
Today was well, tiring. Maths was a bore to me. I was yawning after all that only 7 plus hours of sleep. I want my sleep. (: Haha. I heard from Hao Yu that Detective Conan's latest movie is out in subs. YAY~ But I told him I can't watch, all because of tests. Then he said I still can watch. LOLZ. Awwwww. I really miss my primary school friends.
All I could remember after maths was like Malay and ACC. During the whole duration of Malay, I could not hear a single thing, why is our class so boisterous? But ACC was fun, we had this acting group that changes stories or dramas like Cinderella, The Tortoise and the Hare, etc, and dramas like Bai Quan Nu Wang, etc, into new stories. I really liked their performance. I laughed and laughed~ XD

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Ohmygod. Ohymygod. Ohmygod. I was exploring videos of my sec school and I found this really interesting video. BUT while watching 1:15 I was SURPRISED. I WAS LIKE "==.... "Watch this video. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bpu-fj1e66Y

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Heys. Just finished all my homework. Yay. SO HAPPY~! XD Haha. I think I am sick. My throats really itchy, like there's something there, and I feel really weak and hot. Umm. Maybe a cold? Maybe fever? Maybe IMFLAMMED THOART?! Ohmygod. I can't fall sick.
Just sent chinese group project to Mrs Zhuang. LOL, me and Pei Ting chiong-ed it. ^^ But we are still late. XP HOWEVER, WE HANDED IT UP~! Haha.
Anyways, hope ya listening to the new songs in my Jukebox. Love Justin Bieber's Baby. XD Especially the part where Justin rolled across the Pools Table. SO COOL~! XD
That's all for now~! MUACKS~!

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Hie. My voice is frigging sore from shouting and screaming today during E-lit project. Urgh, it was so hard to get everyone's frigging attention. E-Lit Project..... If you don't listen, you don't know what to do, you mess up the whole presentation, end result: FAIL FOR E-LIT PROJECT.
Lol. I am so pissed.

Saturday, April 3, 2010

OMG. OMG. OMG. I JUST WATCHED ONEGAI TWINS AND IT WAS AWESOME~! XD It is a anime with the storyline of a photo that brought three teenagers together in search of their twin. However, the twist is that only one girl, can be the twin of main character Maiku, while the other is a stranger. The whole story unfolds at the second last episode, where the truth is revealed and it was really nice and sweet. Haha. I love this anime~! XD
Anyways, I still got homework. Mostly art. Haha. JIA YOUS~! GANBARE~!

Friday, March 26, 2010

OMG. I just watched Final Destination, and it was totally really disturbing. It is about 8 or 9 people dying horribly because of their fate with the "Death God". It should be rated M21. It was really disturbing. The people, were death right in front of your eyes. One of them died because she was knocked onto a open drawer with long sharp nails, and a machine gun which fires the nail, and something pressed the button to fire, and HER WHOLE HEAD WAS COVERED WITH THE NAILS POKING THROUGH HER WHOLE HEAD. THE NAILS, WERE FIRED FROM THE BACK OF HER HEAD, AND THEY POKED RIGHT OUT AT THE FRONT OF THE FACE, AND THERE WAS BLOOD EVERYWHERE. The camera FOCUSED ON THE BLOODY FACE WITH THE NAILS. Omg. This movie is not for the faint-hearted.
Then after school, I took 52 back. I sat beside this middle-aged guy, and he asked me if bus 52 was going to Boon Lay, Jurong Point. I said " No, this bus goes to Jurong MRT Interchange. You can take the MRT to Boon Lay." Then he said he did not want to take MRT but bus. Then a few minutes later, when the bus stopped at zhong zhi's bus-stop, he asked me if the bus turns left or right next at the junction up ahead. I said left. He then thanked me and asked for my secondary school. I replied "Nan Hua" hesitantly. Then he said "Oh. Nan Hua." " Are you sec 2?" he asked me. I replied no, and I was a sec 1. DID I DO ANYTHING WRONG?! Should i have not told him my secondary school? HE EVEN KNOWS I AM A SEC 1 NOW. God....

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Hie~! I am like, so busy nowadays. URGH, I AM THE LEADER FOR A WHOLE BUNCH OF PROJECTS... Do I look like a leader? Haha. I got stress. STRESS I TELL YOU STRESS. FROM PROJECTS AND HOMEWORK AND MORE PROJECTS. I still have the Shanghai trip in June holidays and I got a concert coming up at HWA CHONG. OMG. OMG.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Why can't you just say "I Love You"?

Hey hos~! IT'S THE HOLS, SO LET'S JUMP AND SCREAM AND JUMP~! But...... Projects and homework and piling and piling.... THE HOLS ARE NOT HOLS! THEY ARE WORST THAN NORMAL SCHOOL DAYS! URGH. Yesterday's Math Trail was okay... Just that they gave us too little time. I was in a group with Steffi, Jing Chao and Lester. Haha. Lester had an injured arm and was terribly hungry. He ate this whole packet of chocolate bread, yum, and a chocolate muffin. LOL. I was drinking my coke and being all hyperactive. See ya.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

HIIIEEE~!
Yea, I know. My blog's like DEAD, DEAD for 2 months. ^^ Sec school life is hectic, so hectic, that I can only spare like half an hour to use Facebook, compared to the hours I spent on the computer. I GOT MY TABLET PC AND IT'S SO FREAKING AWESOME~! I transferred my Shugo Chara pics and other anime pics onto my Tablet Pc, and IT ROCKS~! Now, I am left with the 1000 songs..... SHIT.

Monday, February 1, 2010

Today I had Geo and History tests.... Very nervous. Lolz. Today had MAJOR SEATING ARRANGEMENT. Yue Hong and Jun Ye ended up sitting beside me.... YUE HONG IS MY MORTAL ENEMY! We quarelled all day today..... YUE HONG! I AM GOING TO KILL YOU ONE DAY! JUST YOU WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Muahaha. Tmr got choir! ^^ But the instructor is quite fierce, most of the time, she's in a bad mood, and can make us stand for straight 3 HOURS. 3 HOURS. Very tiring one. Sigh. I wish I can sit down and sing. The instructor is fierce, but she's good. Her level of patience is quite high. Good for us. ^^ TESTS ARE PILING UP ON US!NEXT WEEK! IS TESTS!!!!!!!!!!!Urgh.
Anyways, heard that Yiling got into SJAB, CONGRATS! My school's SJAB is very cool. They performed during CCA Extravaganza and they rock. They jumped over 2 tables on top on each other, and crawled under super low tables, and then carried "wounded" people over and under tables. Haha.
Yesterday was Home-Econ, QUITE FUN! WE COOKED CHICKEN MACARONI SOUP! Yay! The boys were not as bad as I thought. But then, when Ms Yeo, our teacher, asked the boys to cook the macaroni, they got some water in the pot, and got some macaroni. Then 10 mins later, Ms Yeo asked "Is the macaroni done yet?" Then we girls went to check, and laughed. "HOW DO YOU INTEND TO COOK THE MACARONI WHEN THE STOVE IS NOT EVEN ON?!" Ms Yeo screamed in laughter while we girls laughed like crazy. The boys were like "Oh. Ya. I forgot." HAHA! I love my cooking! ^^

Monday, January 25, 2010

Today had lessons as usual, but we had class decoration, which sucks as my class is sooooooooo lazy and sooooooooooo bu zi dong, so ended up, we only had a few simple decorations up, which sucks. LOLZ. I want to have Sze Teng back so that we can do stuff together again!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, January 22, 2010

TESTS SUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!! THEY SUCK!!!!!!! HOMEWORK SUCK!!!!!!!!! SLEEP, COKE AND MY FRIENDS ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! URGH.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

I AM THE HOME ECONS AND IT REP! YAY! Although I can't be two reps at once, I want to wait until the teacher realises that cos I really want to be Home-Econ and IT rep. Muahahah. Tomorrow's Orientation Camp, I am preparing for it. MUAHAHA.

Monday, January 11, 2010

YAY for school. Today was freaking fun. Too bad we had to split tables into row by row. I can't ask Lester anything. DARN. Today had Home Econs! YAYAYA! I HAD BEEN WAITING FOR THIS MOMENT TO SEE BOYS COOK! AND I AM THE HOME-ECON REP! YAY! But lol, today was only briefing, BORING, then got test on kitchen utensils. URGH. I ALMOST FAILED. Got 6 1/2 marks over 10 after adding 1/2 marks. Haha. Really tired today. I hope Mdm Tan wants us to move our tables back to 2 by 2s.

Friday, January 8, 2010

Fifth day of school! OMG. I AM SO TIRED!
Maths was first. WE HAD THREE TEACHERS AS OUR MATHS TEACHERS. OMG. MR CHEE, MRS LEE AND MS GOH, SINCE WHEN WE NEED 3 TEACHERS FOR OUR MATHS?! Bio was the second subject. Went through a worksheet with Mdm Tan. Then PE was next. We had this teacher who was very funny as our teacher, AND CAN YOU BELIEVE IT, WE CAN GET A YELLOW OR RED CARD FOR PENALTY IF WE DO SOMETHING WRONG IN PE CLASS AND MUST STAY BACK FOR DETENTION! OMG. Then break-ed. Geo was next. OMG. We had this strict teacher as our teacher. She went on and on about how to learn Geography, and we were like "So boring lah. We want to sleep liao." LOLS. Then Higher Chinese was next. We were laughing a lot cos our teacher is very comical and yet very strict, Read chapter 1 of the textbook and the lesson was over. Then lunch-ed. English was next. We had Miss or Mrs Edwards as our english teacher. She wanted a file too. WHY CAN'T THE BOOKSHOP JUST ADD 8 OR 9 DIFFERENT COLOURED FILES FOR US!!!!!!!!!! EVERY TEACHER WANTS ONE!!!!!!! URGH. Voted for English Rep and hit Lester's head with my notebook cos he's wants to be the English Rep even though he's already IT and Physics Rep. LOL. HE LIKES TO MULTI-TASK. Haha. Then intro-ed again for Mrs or Miss Edwards. I told Lester that his intro must be interesting, and HE DID MAKE IT INTERESTING. He went up, and said "Hi" and waves, "I am Lester and I am from Princess Elizabeth Primary School, and my hobbies include..." and HE TAKES HIS SCRIPT WHICH HAD A WHOLE LIST OF HOBBIES( and he said his hobbies could fill up a whole A4 page, and his handwriting is small), and starts scratching his head and started at the paper, and we all started laughing and he too started to laugh. He took a last look at the paper and went "My hobbies are running and card tricks." and he did this weird fast action with his hands and we laughed. He sat back beside me and he said "Was that interesting?" I laughed. LOL.
YAY! I KNOW MORE FRIENDS' NAMES! I KEEP FORGETTING! Jun Min, Reon, Pei Ting, Grace, Rachael, Kesajil and Dora!

Thursday, January 7, 2010

This is the fourth day of school. Beginning to feel really tired and wants to see her best friends from primary school. Today we had our first lessons. Started with Bio with Mdm Tan, who wanted us to bring stuff and buy green file for Bio. Then went for recess. Hanged out with Steffi, Jing Chao and Katherine, Kat for short. LOL. KATE FOUND THIS NEEDLE AND A THREAD IN HER SHIRT!!! She went "OMG. MY MOTHER IS TRYING TO KILL ME!!!!! I MIGHT HAVE GOT POKED BY THIS NEEDLE!!!!!" I started laughing and Jing Chao burst into laughter. LOL. Then Kat went "I AM GOING TO CALL MY MOM TO COMPLAIN!! I AM GOING TO TAKE A PHOTO OR EVIDENCE!!!" And she went to take two photos. LOL. Then we had Higher Chinese and we had Zhuang lao shi as our teacher. She's damn strict, and very funny. Her Chinese is damn pro one. Say a lot of cheng yu, and asked us to write them on a A3 sized paper and stick on our walls to remind us to be the best of the best. She's gonna check with our parents if we did that at home. :/ She also requested our to buy a black file for Chinese stuff. LOL. Then had Assembly. Yay. We got to wear our tie for the whole day!!!! LOL. MY TIE IS SUPER LONG. IT REACHED THE MIDDLE OF MY SKIRT. Then lunched. English Lit was next. Mrs Veronica Chua was our teacher. She's damn funny and nice. She said that she is thicked-skinned and then she said "Do you know that "Beautiful" is my middle name? I don't mind people calling me Mrs Beautiful when they see me" LOL. HAHAH!!!! Then she said "Do you know what's my chinese name? My chinese name is.... MEINU!" HAHAHA!!! She also said "Some students call me a elephant, and when they do so, I say "Ya, I am the most beautiful elephant in school." LOLS. Then she said "You know this class is very lucky? You have two very beautiful ladies as teachers. One is, of course me lah, the other one is Mrs Caroline Chua, who is your History teacher. " LOL. Then it was History and Mrs Chua came in. She asked all of us what we thought of history and then laughed, cos we all said that history is BORING and must memorize a lot of stuff. Then she started teaching Chapter 3 to us without us knowing cos she was like chatting with us, and not teaching, so when she started talking about why people over the world live near rivers, and we told her why and said it was common sense, she suddenly said "SEE! HISTORY IS NOT BORING! I JUST TAUGHT YOU CHAPTER 3!" Then we all were like "WHAT?! YOU DID!?" then we flipped our history book to chapter 3. LOL. Then Physics was last. Our Physics teacher was Mrs Chiang. Very strict and not so friendly. We got homework from her. :/ Haha. Then bus-ed home.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Third day of School: Today started out as going to school by car. Haha. Today was flag painting day and camp prep and briefing. I AM BEAT! The flag was huge and i stayed back to paint finish the whole thing. :/ We also have a skit to perform during camp. IT'S GONNA BE FUNNY! Byes!

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

SECOND DAY OF SCHOOL! Today was fun. We played Splat, Honey Honey I Love You and Double Wacko today. The Splat was slightly changed to make it look like a ice-breaking game. The Student Councilors had to say a name or register number and that person got to squat and the two on each side of the person had to say SPLAT! LOL. I was the first runner-up. ): A guy who fell to the ground and dodged my aiming splat-ed me first. HE'S EVIL. Honey Honey I Love You was simply hilarious. A person had to stand in the middle of the circle and with eyes closed, walk to a person, and say "Honey, honey, I love you, can you smile for me?" and can do anything to make that person smile or laugh, without smiling or laughing herself/himself too. Some proposed, some knelt on their feet in front of the victim. LOL. We all burst into laughter and giggles. Double Wacko was not that fun though. I could not understand the rules of the game. LOL. TOMORROW IS FLAG PAINTING DAY! Sigh, if only our class is not so boisterous for the boys.....

Monday, January 4, 2010

First day of Sec School. It rained in the morning, so I was like "WHAT?! IT'S SO DARK! I CAN'T SEE THE ROAD!" Darn. Took bus 183, which is so cool, since it was the bus I took in Primary School. It was nostalgic. Yup. Everyone in my class, reminded me of everyone in 6 Care. Sad, I know. There is this Student Council, which is so cool. The President is way way cool. He's nice, and friendly. I met Jing Cho, Lester, Han Yi and Chloe. Lester is nice. He's my buddy. Haha. We introed, and my form teacher is way cool. She's pretty. But she's like Miss Wee when she scolds. I miss Miss Wee. :)
Haha. I saw this quiz. It seems so familiar. I got the result. Look at this.
You are Green!

You are a cool yet energized person.
You probably tend to be a little more introverted than extroverted - while you love being with your friends, you still need your "you" time.
You are probably a rather laid back, zen sort of person, unless you get a good kick of energy; then you can be crazy fun!
You are probably insightful and smart; logic comes easily to you.
You tend to be a balance between red and yellow.
Reds are passionate and intense, and tend to walk over people.
Yellows tend to be the walked on, because they like to keep the peace.
You, however, are a balance of both.
You know when to lie down and let someone take the lead, but if you feel strongly about something, you're not afraid to stand up for it!
You are probably compassionate as well, and like animals and plants.
You may be a little off-beat, and feel like not many people really see the depth in your personality.
You would probably rather keep things on a superficial level that other people can understand than show the deeper side of yourself.
You, in a nutshell: Cool, energized, balanced, strong, funky, zen, deep, intelligent, logical, compassionate.

Yea, yea.

Thursday, December 31, 2009

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!!!! YAYAYAYAY!
WOO HOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL. I am so not looking forward to 2010, cos it means I am going to be seperated for 4 years from my best friends. SIGH SIGH SIGH.
SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE IS GOING TO BE E-P-I-C.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

This sucks. No one else is going nan hua.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

22 DEC AND 23 DEC, I BEG YOU, DON'T COME. I WANNA STAY IN MY PRIMARY 6 LIFE.
It sucks. 22 Dec is the BIG BIG BIG DAY when I know which school I am going, which sucks as NONE of my best friends are going with me. NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am probably gonna just smile and find someone to hang with, which is kinda impossible due to my quirky personality. BLEAGH. I wanna see my best friends in the same school as me every single day and have fun. Oh ya, I tend to forgot stuff very easily, so don't blame me if I forget to do something.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

I BROKE MY PERSONAL BEST RECORD.
I HICCUPED 9 TIMES IN 8 HOURS, due to my uncontrollable laughter yesterday. Amazing right? My god-siblings came to my house, went out to shop. We went Chinatown,Vivo City and IMM. Damn shiok. Ate lunch at Chinatown. Ate Dinner at IMM. Laugh, laugh, laugh. Chat, chat, chat.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

SOMEONE JUST KILL ME.
Great, I am going to a school where none of my best friends are going. Even my best friends, Sze Teng and Ek Hwee, who got the same results as me, are going to RIVER VALLEY. THIS SUCKS. REALLY SUCKS.
I am stressed, so much, that my hair became brittle and dry.
I am worried that I can't make a best friend there, knowing that my weird character and personality would make it sort of impossible to make friends. Maybe if I act like Amu in Shugo Chara?

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

THE HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!! WO WO WO WO WO HO HO HO HO HOHO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LETS HAVE FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hahaz, just being real hyper here. I love hanging out with my friends and having a great time playing games. I LOVE BASKETBALL!!!!!!!
I should invite my friends over to play Wii, wonder if my dad will agree. I can't wait for my cousins to come over and play!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BYES!

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

HI THERE ALL. OMG. 26 NOV. IT'S COMING. RUN EVERYONE!
LOLZ. Yea, the BIG DAY is coming, I guess everyone's excited or afraid. I am afraid, hahaz. HOLIDAYS ARE SO FUN! I can use the computer all day long, playing Pet Society, LOLZ! But then, there is like nothing else fun to do other than using computer. I wanna go swimming, parties, ice-skating, roller-blading, have snow fights at Snow City with my FRIENDS! I WANNA HAVE FUN!

Friday, November 20, 2009

SCHOOL'S OVER. GREAT. HERE COMES 26 NOV.
Last day of school was the most fun. We went to this NEWater Visitor Centre, took lots of pictures, walked around. I drank Coke there. It cost $1, which was damn expensive. But I spill it anyway on Sze Teng's bag. SORRY!I fell asleep in the bus on the way back to school, which sucks as Sze Teng managed to take some pictures of me, saying that she could use those to threaten me one day. LOLZ. Missing all my teachers, best friends and classmates.
I MISS EK HWEE, SZE TENG, DAWN, LE MIN, SAKINAH, KELLY, BRENDA, ZHONG ZHI AND HAO YU.

Monday, November 9, 2009

HEY ALL. I LOVE YOU.
Hahaz. I have not blogged for a long time. :) Hahaz. Wow, time passes so quickly. Today was GEMS Market. I guess our class was like busy selling stuff. Hahaz. I went to Anchor Green Primary School to decorate this booth for Mr Ho's project. MY HAND IS SO TIRED, I used my right hand to cut cut cut the whole day. SERIOUSLY. Lolz.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

FAMILY PROBLEMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
UGH, I HATE THIS. I hate my parents. They don't understand me. They anyhow scold me. Whenever I use the computer to do research for Mr Ho's project, my dad was sarcastic and said coldly," That is homework meh!" The words were like cold water being splashed on me. Plus, he took my earphones anyway when I did not do anything wrong. WHAT THE HECK LAH. My mom, she don't even do anything, she just sit there ignoring everything, no showing care and concern like most parents would. I have not talked to my dad for 4 days straight. I don't care. I hate this family. I want to just leave with all my stuff and go live somewhere else. I am a bird in a cage. My parents contorl where I go, it's not like I go to places and do bad things right? Parties also my dad very angry, don't want to let me go, even if he lets me, I must go BEFORE I EVEN EAT DINNER AND EAT CAKE AND TAKE PHOTO. I also can't go out, I can hardly go out, can't eevn go watch movies with friends for fun. EVERYTHING I DO MUST BE MEANINGFUL. WATCH MOVIE IS NO USE, THAT'S WHAT MY MOM SAYS. Hazzzzz, all I can do is to just continue on with my outside character and let my parents misunderstand me again....... I HAVE LEARNT TO CRY SILENTLY IN PUBLIC AND AT HOME ALL BECAUSE OF THIS....................

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Yesterday was Dawn's birthday, and I went to her house to have some fun. Basically, I went there with Zhong Zhi, who was late and then played Wii at Dawn's house. Ate spagetti, which was yummy, and seaweed chicken, which rocks. Then, waited for Dawn's mother to bring Yiling, Kelly and me to K-Box as we were the second batch, to K-BOX. I LOVE IT THERE. Even though the air-con there sucked as it was freezing in Room 26, I enjoyed myself very much. We sang a lot of songs, and the only ones I remember is Boom Boom Pow, GEE, Just Dance, Bad Day( sang by Zhong Zhi!), Poker Face and Showtime. Hahaz. ZHONG ZHI SANG LIKE AN ANGEL. SO CUTE! Hahaz. Then went back to Dawn's house, played card games, went back home with Suu Le Min, Sakinah, Zhong Zhi. Yea. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DAWNIE!

Monday, October 26, 2009

Hi! Just wanna have a quick post. I am addicted to Pet Society nowadays. Hahaz. But,then, I want to go for the Sabah trip! But, I know Mr Ho will not let me go because I have already went for the Sarawak trip. Sigh. I wish a miracle will happen and he will choose me to represent Fuhua again.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Hey alls. I can't believe it. PLSE is like over. But everything feels like a dream. I was hoping that this is a dream so that I can have PLSE again. Sigh. People keep telling me that PLSE is over and I can relax and surprisely, I can't. I am feeling uneasy as I want to go to the Sabah trip thingly with Yiling and Nabilla and Zi Kang, but I know I may not be able to go as I already went to the Sarawak trip. Mr Ho and Miss Wee may tell me to give this chance to other students who have not gone overseas to represent the school and may even scold me for being selfish. DEAR GOD, I BEG YOU. PLEASE LET A MIRACLE HAPPEN AND LET ME GO TO THE SABAH TRIP WITH MY FRIENDS, FOR I MAY NOT HAVE THIS CHANCE ANYMORE.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Hi everyone. This is just a quick post, so don't expect much. Anyway, this is a really nice video. I hope you can watch the whole video and send it on in your blogs. You can help save the planet by checking out Disney's Friend's For Change - proceeds go to charity. Go to this website and enjoy: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jxlr2nKd4Bw&feature=player_embedded#

Thursday, October 15, 2009

"Is it true that you really are going? I don't want to believe that. I don't want to imagine that scene. Please, don't go, stay with me. I don't want you to be with her. Stay, I beg you. Stay with me.........."
Seriously, life is getting harder and harder. I have to face reality, and that stupid arrogant guy with the loud voice still harassing me. Bleagh. I want to stay as far away as I can from you and make him disappear forever. JIA LE, YOU GET OUT OF MY SIGHT. AVOID ME AND I WILL BE HAPPY. YOU STAY AWAY FROM ME.

Friday, October 9, 2009

TAI JIA LE, IF YOU ARE READING THIS POST, I CAN TELL YOU SOMETHING. YOU SUCK LIKE HELL.
YOU:
1. Have a damn suckish attitude
2. Have a damn suckish personality
3. Think you are a know-it-all
4. Think you are "so cool", in fact, you suck like hell
5. Think you are all high and mighty, in fact you are a little piece of shit
6. Think you are "so likeable" by everyone
7. Keep harassing me
8. MAKE EVERYONE FEEL VERY UNCOMFORTABLE THAT THEY JUST WANT TO GET AS FAR AS POSSIBLE FROM YOU
9. Think people like me like you right? DREAM ON. YOU ARE SO DAMN WRONG. I WAS LOOKING AT SZE TENG DURING CLASS, NOT YOU. WHO WOULD WANT TO LOOK AT A PIECE OF SHIT.
10. Make me feel so disgusted that I want to get away from you and get rid out of my life. SO GO GET OUT OF MY SIGHT.
11. Think you are "so clever"
12. Are so damn proud
13. Are so damn rude, you TALK BACK TO EVERYONE
14. Are invisible to everyone, they don't even know you exist
15. Are so damn stupid
16. Think you are "so handsome" right, let me tell you something: Marcus is 1 000 000 times more good looking than you, and let me tell you another thing: Marcus is not so good looking. Zhong Zhi or Hao Yu, they are A BILLION MILLION TIMES MORE GOOD LOOKING THAN YOU.
17. Think you have "A GOOD PERSONALITY" right, let me tell you something: Marcus is 10 000 000 times better than you in terms of personality. Let me tell you another thing: Hao Yu and Zhong Zhi is 1000 0000 0000 times better than you in terms of personality.
18.Think you are so "good", YOU MAKE EVERYONE PUKE WHEN YOU BOAST LIKE SHIT.
19.Think you are "the king", you talk back to everyone as if they are you servants. I PUKE AH.
20. YOU ARE THE MOST ARROGANT, RUDE, PROUD, STUPID, SHORT, UGLY, DISGUSTING, GROSS, SO HATEABLE AND THE PERSON THAT I DON'T EVEN WANT TO SEE AGAIN IN MY WHOLE LIFE. SO GET OUT OF MY SIGHT FOREVER.
21. Have no good points at all.
Sorry if I had shocked you with the words that I have used in this post but this guy makes my blood boil.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Hey alls. Yea, I know. I have not been posting for a long time. Homework increased, stress coming. LOLZ. This Friday is Yuchong's birthday, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUCHONG!!!!!! YOU RULE THE UNIVERSE. LOLZ
Today went to school for class, and it was energy-draining. I got to do 3 compos, Maths and English. Sigh. JIA YOU!

Friday, August 28, 2009

























PRELIMS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!KYA~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Yeah, yeah, I know. I am over-reacting here. So what? Letting your emotions out is GOOD.
Anyways, BIG SHOUT-OUT TO EK HWEE!!!!!!!!!!1 I KNOW YOU ARE READING THIS POST. AND YOU WILL BE THINK "OMG. WHAT IS JIA YING DOING?" Hahaz.
Ek Hwee, must watch Shugo Chara kay? I got some pictures of TADASE, and of course, IKUTO!!!!!! KYA~~~~~~~~~~ I will print out and show you on Monday. Oh ya, and thanks for agreeing to help me with the balloons on Monday. LOVE YAS!!!!!!! MUACKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Thursday, August 20, 2009

Hey hos! I am blogging for the first time in months. Pro right? Anyway, PreLims English was killer hell. Seriously. Situational writing was like freaking hard, and Paper 2, don't even think it is chicken feed. PLSE Oral chinese was okay, but I stammered. GOD PLEASE BLESS ME, AND HELP ME SCORE AT LEAST 46. PLSE english oral tomorrow, and I got more confidence in that then today's oral. ORAL IS THE WORST EXAM EVER. %%%%$$@@! Okay, i know I can't do that %%$!@$@& thing properly, it looks like shit and money. WISH ME LUCK FOR PLSE ORAL TMR!

Love yas!

Friday, July 10, 2009

Hi all. I know, I have not been blogging for like a super long time. People complaining my blog is so dead. Homework has been increasing lately, so I wanna like throw away all my homework and go play. Grrrrr. Anyway, I have finished my zuo ye, so now I has this Maths to complete. Argh. I hate homework.
Today morning went to school super early. Arrived in school at 6.35a.m. Found no one in the classroom. Found two moths flying around the classroom and that freaked me out. I took Sze Teng's water bowl for art and capture one baby moth and let it free outside the classroom. That's when Hao Yu AKA D Dino came in. Grrr. I had not caught the big moth, and that's probably the reason why the class freaked out in Chinese period today, especially Ek Hwee. Sorry.
Class started with oral. And then P.E was super boring with Mr Idris looking at us playing. Hello? He was like staring at us and giving us advice. Love the advice but not the staring. I GOT A HOMERUN AND OUR TEAM WON!
Class started again. And the class was dismissed at 1pm, but we had chinese sub. Did compo all the way. Long seh.

Friday, July 3, 2009

OMG.OMG.OMG. The Prelims are like here. Panic, panic. PLSE is so near.... DIE LIAO!
Okay, forget that I am panicking here. Today, went to school, my homework file is like so worn out, the edges have big holes, the zip is totally ruined. Argh. I got to get a new file. P.E lesson was so fun. We played baseball, and I got a home run! Yay! Then, lesson began and Mrs Zakria begun to talk. Then recessed. Had lessons. Then after school, went to buy Kinder Joy(so nice). Went to Dawn's house with Ek Hwee and homed afterwards.
I STILL FEEL THAT IT'S STILL THE HOLIDAYS!

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Okay, my friends have been complaining about my blog being a dead one, so here I am, writing my first and last post for this holiday. Plus, I will not be blogging so often anymore. I am just writing this post to say that ZERO NO TSUKAIMA rocks!
Zero No Tsukaima is anime that talks about magic, fantasy and my favourite, ROMANCE! Eeeeeee! (fangirl joy) I have watched finished season 1 and I am now watching season 2. I LOVE EPISODE 4 OF SEASON 2! LOUISE AND SAITO KISSED FOR LIKE A VERY LONG TIME IN A BOAT DRIFTING ALONG A RIVER! Eeeeeeeeeeeeee! Loving this anime!
Oh ya, I also love Kamichama Karin! Magic and fantasy and romance too!
Cya!

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Yay! Holidays are here! *whoop*! But, cannot see friends everyday, *sigh....*
Okay, on Friday, 29 May 2009, I went for the Pei Hwa Presbyterian Primary School Sports Day and guess who I saw? HUEY YIN AND JERYL! OMG! HUEY YIN GREW SO MUCH TALLER AND JERYL ALSO GREW TALLER! JERYL KEPT SMILING AT ME and I smiled back so many times! He is still as cute as EVER! Okay, enough of fan-girl joy. Then, raced. Boo hoo, got 5th. The Nan Yang girls were so strong....
On Saturday, 30th May, I went for the ShInE at Fuhua and went for PA duty. I was so mad on that day lah, because Dawn was supposed to replace me as the lead singer and yet 10mins before the concert, she had not even looked for one of the PA memebers to get her headset mic yet! I was RUNNING ALL OVER SCHOOL WITH A LEG INJURY WHICH MIGHT BE SERIOUS LOOKING FOR HER AND SHE WAS AT THE RED BRICK AREA BEHIND THE CANTEEN PRACTISING! Urgh, I was not mad that I got replaced, I was mad because I think she is not taking the lead singer role seriously and did not know how much trouble did it cost someone to run all over school just to look for her to help her put her mic on!


Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Hi! Sorry for not posting for so long. I am currently busy with revision. Exams are here, duh. Anyway, can't write much. Just wanna write something that happened after Chinese Compo class today. Ek Hwee, Dawn and I went to our meeting spot and talked, more like crapped. Then, we started talking about height. Our conversation went like this:
Ek Hwee: I don't think Jia Ying can grow taller than me. (Or something like that)
Me: Who says! I bet that in 10 years' time, I will grow taller than you! I will write this in my diary too!
Ek Hwee: Okay! Let's see whether you can grow taller than me after 10 years! Write this bet on your blog and diary, let everyone witness this bet!
Me: Okay!
Okay, so everyone witness this bet!

Friday, May 8, 2009

Hi everyone. Got this quiz from my godsister's blog.
Name 13 of your friends you can think of now;
o1: Ek Hwee:D
o2: Sze Teng:D
o3: Yiling:D
o4: Dawn:D
o5: Sakinah:D
o6: Brenda:D
o7: Priscilla:D
o8: Suu Le Min:D
o9: Marcus:D
1o: Carmen(my godsister):D
11: Hao Yu:D
12: Zhong Zhi:D
13: Shi Yao:D
1) How did you meet 1o? (Carmen(my godsister)
>I met her in Primary school and she is my godsister ever since. :D
2) What would you do if you never meet 1? (Ek Hwee)
>I would be super sad. :( I would try my best to try to know her. :D
3) What would you do if o2 and o6 dated? (Sze Teng and Brenda)
>LOL. I don’t think it's possible, THEY ARE BEST FRIENDS! :D
4) Have you seen o4 cry? (Dawn)
>Yup, only once. She's a brave girl. :D
5) Do you think 1o is cute? (Carmen(my godsister)
>Duh! How can my godsister be ugly?! She's cute! :D
6) How did you know o8? (Suu Le Min)
>She's my classmate and one of my closest friends. :D
7) Would you ever go to date with 12? (Zhong Zhi)
>No way. I will never go out with him unless we go out with other friends. :D
8) What's o7 favourite colour? (Priscilla)
> Pink, I think. :D
9) What would you do if o6 confess that he/she likes you ? (Brenda)
>I would gasp in shock. Hello? Brenda is DEFINITELY A GIRL! :D
10) Facts about o9? (Marcus)
>He loves basketball, making people be scared whenever he fakes hurting you, (especially me :P) loves Japanese Anime(especially Naruto) and his best friend is Qing Song. :D
11) Who is o4 going out with? (Dawn)
> No one. She is still a school girl and my best friend. :D
12) Who is o5 to you ? (Sakinah)
>She is definitely one of my BFFs and my school house team mate. :D
13) Would you ever live with 13 ? (Shi Yao)
>LOL. NO WAY, DUH. HE IS A BOY, AND I AM JUST A GIRL. :D
14) Is o2 single? (Sze Teng)
> Yes. :D
15) What do you think of o3 ? (Yiling)
>Very enthusiastic, funny, hyper, loving IT, loves yellow, kind, not so gentle(:D) and a great friend. :D
16) What's the best thing about o5 ? (Sakinah)
>She is super friendly.:P
17) What do you think of 11 ? (Hao Yu)
> He acts cool, very funny, kind and very smart. :D
18) Favourite memory with o2 ? (Sze Teng)
>Laughing out loud whenever we do funny faces. :D
4 lucky people;D
o1; Ek Hwee:D
o2; Sze Teng:D
o3; Zhong Zhi:D
o4; Hao Yu:D

Friday, May 1, 2009

Thursday, 30 April
OMG. I had just went to the Track and Field practice and I had SURVIVED! YOU CANNOT BELIEVE WHAT WE ALL DID AND I SURVIVED. LUCKILY I WAS THE ONE WHO WENT INSTEAD OF EK HWEE. IF EK HWEE HAD WENT, I THINK SHE WOULD HAVE FAINTED. You know what we did for warm-up? NOT THE USUAL STRETCH YOUR NECK KIND. IT WAS JOGGING NON-STOP 50M FOR 5 WHOLE TIMES! Then, we stretched. Boy, STRECHING WAS EVEN WORSE! I HAD TO BEAR THE PAIN OF LIKE GOING THROUGH PREGNANCY DURING 4 DIFFERENT TYPES OF STRETCHING. Wanna know more about the stretching? Ask me at school and I will force you to demo to yourself. Then, the worse part. RUNNING FAST 150M NON-STOP FOR 5 TIMES! Bleargh! I was the last of my group man. Better train hard. I AM THE FIRST RUNNER FOR 4X100M NATIONALS. I DIE LIAO LAH... DISTANCED COVERED IN LESS THAN 2 HOURS:1KM

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Yo Ho everyone! Sigh, tmr is English Oral. Will die one leh. Today, morning presented the Solar Investigator to the whole class. Then practised the cheer for Miss Wee, but I never had the chance to perform anyway. Then went to meet Mr Ho. THE JUDGES CAME! AHHH! Presented, let them question us. They were surprisely friendly. I thought they were going to eat me up seh. Then went back to class. Arted. Cried. Ate maggi mee opposite with Sze Teng and chatted. Homed.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Tuesday, 21 April
TODAY WAS SO FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! FUN! We went to Science Centre today for a lab lesson, but we came early, so Mrs Zakria allowed us to go to look around the premise, so I hanged out with Ek Hwee, Yiling, Dawn and Sakinah, going around to try different things. Then went back to the lab to have the lab lesson with Miss Lim. The BEST PART was when we went down to the Eco gardens to catch aquatic plants and animals. But for me not really catch lah, because I was like going hyper over my excitness to catch a dragonfly, which I eventually did, and I named it Spoty because it got black spots on its yellow back. SO NICE! But I also loved the damselflies that Ek Hwee caught while they were mating. 2-in-1 seh. You would not believe how many people fell into the pond, Raymond even lost HIS SHOE! Lucky me! I was dry all the way. Then after Science Centre trip, went back school to do the NSW IT test. So hard. Met with Mr Ho, choired, homed.
Wednesday, 22 April
Today was OKAY. Morning, scienced with Mrs Zakria. Chinesed. I had to go for the dentist. Lucky me, my teeth were very clean, so the dentist gave me a bookmark. Yay! Then I had to go call Yiling. Our conversation went like this:
Jia Ying: You're up.
Yiling: Up for what?
Jia Ying: Go dentist lah.
Then after recess, went to gallery walk the classrooms, reflected. Arted. Too bad Yiling's effort to get a aluminum can for us went down the drain. Mdm Choo gave out this oval template which we have to draw in it. I was about to draw a Shugo Chara egg lah, but can't remember a thing. :P
Then, met with Mr Ho, ate ice-cream opposite, homed.

Monday, April 20, 2009

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Friday:
Wah. Forgot. Sorry!
Saturday:
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OMG! THE GUYS AT NAN HUA SECONDARY SCHOOL ARE SO HOT!!!! AHHHH!(going gaga) Went to NHSS to participate in a quiz, but I was a reserve so Mis Ong Sook Yen treated me to half-boiled eggs while she ate toast and coffee, and we chatted all the way until 10am. Then went to the hall to have lecture. Then played games related to water. Won two post-its, green hand towel and a cosmetics bag from Gordon. He gave it to me, because I really wanted to win a cosmetics bag, thats why I tried playing a lot og games, but the people said not much of the cosmetics bags left, so cannot give me. Then i so sad lah, so Sze Teng, Shi Yao wanted Gordon to give me his cosmetics bag. I am so happy! EEE! Thx Gordon! Then lunched. Yummy things they have there. Then went to the hall for prize-giving ceremony. Didn't win anything else cos I was not in the quiz. Went back home.
Monday:
Morning. Englised. Recessed. Chinesed. Social studies. Wah, today got this weird teacher come and observe us. She looks very scary seh. Went back home.
I WANNA READ NEW MOON!

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Tell me my friends, am I invisible to the whole world?
Okay. Today was so funny man. Morning, P.E-ed . Play this game called Cookie Monster and Big Bird. So fun. Played with Yuchong, Acey and Alethea. Then Chinesed. Relief teacher, Mrs Kwok, didn't sit down and do her own things, instead she kept on teaching us like she was our form teacher and scolded Marcus because he called her a old women in Hokkien when she came into the classroom. Did maths. Recessed. Englished. Health Ed-ed. Lucky Miss Chee was here today. Went to Singapore Poly with Sze Teng, Ashley, Shi Yao and Gordon. Joked about Gordon being a rich man's son and his mother driving a BMW. Pro. His family really very rich. It was not so bad after all. I had A GREAT TIME THERE. Went there, ate Mcdonald's. Went to the Auditorium to have the briefing. The briefers started going on and on about Climate Change, and showed us a video about people saying heir opinions and facts about Climate Change. So funny lah. George W. Bush was in the video too. Then got this "lady" came out of nowhere with this hairstyle that is so weird that Sze Teng, Ashley and I kept on laughing and laughing. During the briefing, we three girls secretly played Hangman. Then we also copied down pages of notes. During the whole briefing, I turned back and saw almost one-third of the audience was already asleep seh. We girl were so clumsy today lah, we kept on dropping things, even Shi Yao dropped his coins and he bumped his head against the chair in front of him and there was this "THUMP!" sound. We tried to hide our laughter by covering our mouths, but our laughter still could be heard. Then Shi Yao thought he found one of his coins, and was grinning when he took out the "coin" from under the chair but his grin disappeared immediately when he saw that what was in his hand was not a coin, but a screw, a big one too. Then, I bent down to help him search, and I found the coin almost imediately after I had bent down. But there was still coins that were missing, but he soon found them when he on in between his chair and Gordon's. He looked so damn happy at that moment man.
During the briefing, we girls went to the toliet and then drank tea(Ashley) and coffee(Sze Teng and me). Sze Teng admits that her coffee tastes terrible, and it was really terrible. But when Ashley and Sze Teng drank my, they wondered why mine was so sweet. I just said "I just put it a whole big packet of sugar and creamer." Trust me, the coffee will be very very sweet when you do what I did.
Then went back to school, and saw Ek Hwee, Yiling, Dawn and Sakinah opposite chatting, so I rushed to take my bag and went opposite and hugged Sakinah. But they all continued talking about kissing the pillar, so I went to buy some sweets when I met Sze Teng going into the shop and she told me that she had seen Sze Ming in the school, so I rushed back to school looking for him, but I could not find him, so I went back opposite, very sad that I could not meet him, wanting to tell Ek Hwee that Sze Ming was in school but I could not find him. But once I got opposite, no one was there. Every one had left, without a word. I felt like I was the only person in the world that time, so I went back home alone, thinking "Am I invisible to the whole world?"